HI! If you somehow got here, hello, your stalker now has a voice!

This journal is basically a fandom leeching/stalking journal. I probably won't post much as I already have my hands full keeping up (leeching) and uni stuff. ETA: So I've started posting, quite a lot too T-T. Who needs academic qualifications anyway.


(  Now onto giving myself a little 'online' personality. )

If you think you know me in real life, turn away, pretend this place never happens and allow me the delusion of a little piece of dignity.

awww three things, wait four, very quickly:

1. Leader's birthday!! Fish!
2. Maru's birthday!!! ummm paaaaan!
3. Happy thanksgiving to those celebrating! Turkey!
4. Eid Mubarak!!!! Meaaat!

ohoho i just remembered i have a new showw icon. sorry o festive!sho, the smirky lil face needs a debut. anyway I was thinking of doing an Ohno picspam but then I read this and exhausted all the ~feelings~~ that i had in one go.

Man when you get comfortable lurking, you get comfortable lurking. i have things to say usually hours before i get to clicking "post" by which time i just want to go back lurking. it is so comfy! i still read everything with much interest and wish those who don't post much would so i could go :DD or sometime even D: augh preamble ramble I just want to say i love you all be well always kay. omg embarassing. i go sleep now.

♥!

So the composite of all of our Arashi boys makes a female!Ohno. This explains a lot lot. I think I understand this fandom like 99.8% more now.



Very badly rendered T-T. Did they ran out of money or something? and awww Sho-chan's drawing. I bet that was high-school times, it's so good.



Marginally better CGI-ed. but seriously that's an Ohno. pretty~~

remember that blue hoodie Aiba-chan wore in that epic aiba/jun episode? when he was so tan he was gyaru? remember that episode where Ohno was so tanned we worried he would die tragically of cancer? he was wearing somekind of blue hoodie too right? huh that just randomly crossed my mind. and who in the styling team think that that shade of blue brings out their tanned appeal? SO WRONG, they looked like they had green lips, iirc.

i'm still listening to umbrella song. so good. (the rap still throws me tho like whooaa shochan whoa)

Aiba-chan do you maybe have rickets? your back looks extra archy lately. You do have that perfectly(or was it pleasantly?) O-shaped legs you're so adorably proud of. I'm worried you'll bend backwards as you age. BUT i will enjoy the lovely view in the mean time. get some vitamin D supplements okay!




look at those legs! not fair aiba-chan!

I have like this HUGE test tomorrow. So what do I do.

Yes I spam.

My Girl. I was surprised that I didn't hate it. Also no inanimate soft objects were harmed by my teeth or my teeth/head rockhard objects, during watching. I was hoping that at least the production values would be okay, and they were okay, for me. I'm not going to pretend this is anything more than an idol vehicle so i'm under no delusion it would be mind blowingly good (i dunno why i had such hopes for TQS2 in the first place, wrong approach ey). It was mechamecyareallysuper adorable though gahhhh. and i wanted to kick masamune's ass a few times. Music was good, and i eat my words (yummmy) the song fits. i'd hope it would lighten up in the coming episodes but you know 1 litre of tears, not that optimistic.

Aiba-chan's acting. That was the first time i've ever finished one episode of any drama with Aiba-chan. There was no "omg he CAN act! O_O" buuuut there was a "eh, he's okay" kinda kanji feeling something. I was glad. heeeee. no I was ecstatic. I could watch this maybe! He did spend most of the time looking like a kicked puppy and when he's not he looked confused. and ADORABABABBLE. Also I wanted to knee him a few times. that's good i guess. i hope they get that out of the way soon. favourite bit of acting? when he ran out of the building to see Yuuka all happy and excited. PUPPY. AIBA. and that cute thing at the end. awwwww. CUTE.

Gantz. I read the 1st volume, what, 3-4 years ago? and found it too gory for my taste. That was the only volume i read of that manga. Maybe there were 2 volumes. I can't remember how many i downloaded from mirc but i did read everything i downloaded at the time. and a smattering of chapters years later when that huge thing happened where that dude died or something or not. i remember reading the spoilers, not really the actual thing. i dont think i could find the actual chapter and read some other chapters by mistake instead. What i'm trying to say is, mmm, yes, hmmm. I don't know how Nino's gonna do it. High-school kid part, i can buy, the parts where he sever limbs in super-powered suits I'm not too sure. But heyyyy Kenichi! awesome actor x awesome actor? bring it on. and! height difference is comparable!

Yatterman. saw it on the plane on the way back. small screen, but okay. there was a lot of Fukakyon and there was some Sho being super adorkable.

Stargate Universe. At first I was like omagahhhhh Robert Carlyle! Then I was like dissappointing.

Flashforward. At first I was like omaghahagaggahh Howard! Sulu! Then I am dissapoint.

anyway,

( minicapspam! )

~spoiler alert~



Next episode! Aiba eats cutely!

video credit: clubbox Gachapin

..yet. but I have been busy and havent had time to do more than barely keep up with fandom. Which is to say, I just heard the short version of My Girl. It was vaguely pleasant but.. not exactly a single song, or a drama theme song. I kept waiting for something interesting to happen but nope, it was just very vaguely pleasant (you mean BORING! right?) all the way through. In fact, I can't really remember how it sounds like already. I did pre-order the LE though. Damn you Arashi.

I've mentioned this to karasu_0 , but I really reaaaally want someone to sit down with Aiba or whoever in charge and tell them to stop messing with the Sugoroku and putting it with no money no time sps. It's all just very frantic and very tiring. Leave the Sugoroku alone and just edit the hell out of it okay? Which reminds me: Arashi challenge week. 50 hours? I was horrified. For multiple reasons. My harddisks for starters, then there's the part where I flashbacked to the VS Arashi 2hr live special and augh was that exhausting to watch or whatttt. Maybe they'll spread it nicely over the week and I won't burn out too fast and feel like killing them all by the end of it. There is that option where I could just ignore them for a week but I haven't manage that voluntarily yet. I will watch or at least download their 38910651 blasted shows within 24 hrs of airing if I have my internet and is not in any immediate danger of dying. Yes, I am that diseased.

Wow did I just whine or did I just whine a lot.

Class I have to go to class. I begrudge my endless schooling.

This picture is all about the eyebrows for me. Especially Ohno and Sho's. Jun's predictably voluminous, I've always, always found Aiba's brows-chan weird, Nino's looked.. untouched but just fine. but damn, I just can't look away from Ohno's, so.. intense! with indentations! and what straight lines they make! so.. INTENSE! and how much of an angry young man was Sho anyway? I would've cowered in fear at the mere sight of those caterpillars, he doesn't even have to bring out the umbrellas. those shirts have creepy antennae wtf.

Nothing to do with the above but I've noticed that just like Jun and Aiba slink their hips, I like how Sho's default pose is to put his hands on/in his back pocket, for support maybe? His butt sticks out the back the most, so that must be it. or he's just so used to fending of attacks, it's subconscious now. or he's used to the feel of hands on his bum. imma go with back support, stiff muscles and all.

saw this and thought that I might actually be able to watch the drama. Aiba-chan's "acting" still makes me laugh horribly. You wouldn't believe how much his "eh? sou desuka?!" face made me lol but i think i can watch this without too much eating and abusing the cushions, maybe. It's adorable! Aiba-chan's adorable, Yuuka's adorable, the kid will be adorable, I HAVE to watch it.

also: going going going homee.

mood: INTENSE!

okay okay im droppin it.

Too many dreams involving slashing and killing and blood lately.

There was one that had me gutting a wolf with a machete. I was with friends around a campfire and for some reason entrusted to the only weapon on us. The wolf was pure white and not aggresive, it wasn't doing anything, just pacing near us. Someone prodded me to kill it anyway, it was dangerous they said. So I stabbed it in the belly, twisted the machete around and gutted out the entrails, spilling blood all over its white fur. I was crying like a baby throughout. Then it immediately went to reset. Back to the time before I killed the wolf, only this time it looked even tamer, lying on its stomach, head resting. I still went to kill it. Still while sobbing uncontrollably. I woke up feeling like shit.

The one I just had was more eleborate. There was a maneuverable island, which i accidentally steered with a tiny plastic wheel into a pirate(?) gulf after a storm. A swarm of bad guys (bad guys?) came on board and I grabbed a seriously long and heavy sword in front of me and started stabbing people left and right. I found that ineffective, so I started slashing through bodies, dismembering, cutting people in half; shallow multiple slashes. The sword wasn't made for stabbing, I wanted so bad to stab instead, it wouldn't be as messy and gory, but I had no choice.

I swear i haven't been reading any pirate epic or rewatching lost or watched any gory films recently.

I wish there's a way i don't pick up internet slang.

I got a return ticket back home for less than 500 euros wtf wtf. That's 400 less than I usually have to pay. Thank you God for H1N1. O' swine flu you bring joy to my bank account although very bad with the killing of people >(.

Now to get through my stupid exams. I wish there's a cure for chronic laziness. I want my brain rewired. I have epic internal fights everytime I have to do anything remotely responsible. Even the simplest little thing have my heart in a fit of do not want.


I came across this naver blog hopping sometime ago. How to make happiness! Where Nino is supervisor in a aibahappiness making factory and it is so bloody cute i could die. It is so cute. So so cute!

So the past two Utabans have been rather mind-numbingly boring. Lacks watermelon and waterguns. Anyway, I actually liked Ohno's routine. It lacks people screaming into my ears and the quiet gymnastic competition-like mood got me laughing for reals at the end. Speaking of gymnastics, Aiba-chan has some gymanstic thing coming up? lol. when I read about that, i just about cocked my head to the right and went hmmmmmmmmmmm. yeah we'll see. Good luck Aiba-chan!

I also have to take back my whining over the single, as I actually love this one! lesson: next time whine more because they'll give it to you. yeah, no.

I've long noticed my rather extreme aversion to any sign of a pity party forming for any arashi member, and i think that's probably just my personal brand of overprotectiveness. Like when someone commented on the cover of a single that aiba-chan is at the back noooooo whhhyyyy, i just want to go yaaarrrrrr does he have to be in front every fucking time? It's not like he's always at the back, and look at those flashy red sneakers. flashyyyy. gahd! Or some overreaction like that. I could pull up some other non-aiba related example but i think i should keep it to that.

I've also been a total bummer the last few months and was embarrassed to go back and read all that emo spewing. I've locked some in shame even.

Meme time. I made bob-chan ( aka theproudpenguin aka very talented graphic/iconmaker i like to stare at. i mean the graphics, yeah) pick some icons for me to go wax lyrical over.
( Icon meme! )

You know what we need? We need tour dates already! I want to gobble up con reports and live vicariously through other people i.e: lucky bastards. we wantsssit now *claws*.

Aiba wears his heart on his sleeves and I still find it hard to read him sometimes. Jun and Nino hold their cards close to the chest and I feel like I can still read them like books with large letterings.

I wonder how it feels to be Aiba. Must be tiring, sometimes. Then I wonder how it feels to be Nino, that has to be even more tiring.


can you feel it? can you feel the ELMO? it's leaking out into my HAPPY PLACE >[ *harrumphss*

lols. *siiiigh*

um lol xD.

lol i thought i wouldn't be doing this but hey. There's HQ caps sitting in my HD screaming to get out. And Nino was like super goodlooking and Aiba was.. I just yeh ded.

It was interesting to see how they would deal with Ayase Haruka's guesting style. Had a taste of it in HnA and Sho was kinda hilarious then trying to deal with it heh. That girl does whatever she likes and put them all in new situations. Excellent.

Nino was frustrated! LOL! LOL!


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After 2 weeks I hope this is no longer spoilery?

I watched the concert ummmm a week ago? I guess after spoiling myself silly with the fancams, I didn't enjoy it as much as I did Time (but that was basically my first concert, so). The highest I got was during Oh Yeah! because that song gets me high no matter what xD. Anyway I came out with only one screencap:






Heh.

I wish I would put a lot more thought in writing out my endless opinions. Most of the time I go back and read my old entries I just see half-baked voicing out of random thoughts. Like that hare-brained theory wasn't a theory at all, just half-baked mind-pies, stating some obvious shit in an incompetent manner. I blame my barely there grasp on the english langu-age and my inability to type fast enough to catch up to any sliver of coherency in my head. /pushes responsibilty to this corner of self

Aaaaaaanyway, lol. srsly I have more cheery sparkly things/caps I want to post but I'm still leeching off my friend's internet. I feel guilty uploading pictures (ooor you're just lazy you idiot, and probably still killing the connection browsing through uncooperative naver blogs in multiple tabs). I still can't help but download all the latest shows. I'm holding back on the subs though.



L-O-L, dammit Ohmiya, L-O-L. If I ever need my breast deflated I'll  be sure to call Ohno.

And Hiro, I'm sorry for not getting your beauty before. It's just you hair in MnS was atrocious and I guess I didn't love you as much as I love Matsujun to have forgiven you on the spot right there and then. You should know how I feel about hair. I love you now and I see your hot. I'm a sucker for nice guys who marries their adorable girlfriends. ♥

Aiba is cute! aldskasdka

My friend who got me into Arashi (huge Oh-chan fan, who was on her sides with laughter next to me watching Ohno in Maou while I was totally feeeelin it, who got excited and all impressed at Nino's 5 seconds appearance, which I WASN'T feeling at all, who after I told her in all seriousness that I was utterly creeped out by Ohno as Naruse and how AMAZING  that is, had tears of laughter in her eyes, who I totally kicked out and told to go watch it by herself, who I'm pretty sure has yet to finish it, whose reaction I'm sure I'll mirror if I ever get to see Aiba in a drama) watched Nino's Marathon once without subtitles. She created a whole original story in her head to go with the visuals, and when the subs came out, she watched it again with me and was kind of disappointed. She cried her eyes out the first time with what she came up herself. I loled.

I miss her. 500 miles huh. Also longest I've typed in brackets. I'm not even sure the brackets were necessary.

I have more to say! and comment on! I will!

I'm stupid D:

Last time I read je_secrets, I left with a rather nice mental image of monkeyAiba throwing poo (thanks inuhariko T-Tb) at monkeySho under monkeyNino's directions while the Alpha-monkey aka rightfully elected Leader sleeps peacefully next to a fierce looking pink butt Baboon.

then I went back again. Stupid. Look what your awesomeassness has done, Sho.

actually lols, kinda. but still, D:

You know that hand wave thing? Not the hi bye see ya kinda wave; this kind: ~I~

The stick I is the torso and the ~, hands, uh obviously *shifty eyes*. I bet the move has a specific name. Anyway I couldn't get that move done at all. I've been trying to do it for the past year or so --I'm not entirely sure why I want to master such a thing, but-- and I still can't, mostly because I have no proper control over my left hand. I'm feeling it now. That sensation you get when you're hyper-aware of one part of your body. Try it, lie in bed or something and try to feel the existence of your left ear. Freaky.

My lack of ambidexterity frustrates me. At least for the next hour or so. The left hand is bugging me.

I have thoughts on stuff, as usual. But I seem to be going back to my old pattern of writing journal entries in my head. Fangirling phases? Lurk->open floodgates->inane in public->head writing->??. Doesn't help that I'm a rather slow typer. Aaand class has started back again. uwergh.

I watched the finales of 1. Zeni Geba, 2. BSG and 3. Mei-chan no Shitsuji, sometime last week in a single day.This was longer and only slightly more eloquent in my head then: 1. Aaawesome T-T, 2. huh so that's it, 3. yeah, okay.

BSG when good was absolutely mindblowing, when they just tell us a story, stories, doesn't tell us who to root for, here take this, go make up your own damn minds over it, mindfrackfrackfrack, and when mostly the characters moved the plot instead of the other way around. When it sucked, it reaaaaally sucked. Unfortunately the last few episodes were suckfests. yay. I was positively tired of it, and my eyes travelled to the back of my head in boredoom constantly throughout the finale. The only time I felt anything close to the cathartic moments they used to supply intermittently, was seeing the red paint on the centurions, that got me teary-eyed for a sec. and that was it, it went downhill from there.

Zeni Geba minus the part where an incapacitated man managed to overpower a healthy full grown man and the pointless (or just sub-standardly, by this how's standards, done) plot involving the family restaurant, was excellent to the end. I'm seriously thinking of putting some time aside and writing a proper review of this series episode by episode. Something I've never done before.

Mei-chan was just, uh yeah that: typical of the genre. I must say the thing I enjoyed most from the drama was when the most of the cast were there and reacting in ridiculous manners complete with cracky jerk and shake motion of the cameras. I loved the camera work. 

It's shaping up to be Sho's year isn't it? Last year was Leader's, and this is Sho-chan's year and rightly so.To be honest I'm looking forward to his drama more than Matsujun's. Based on the description alone, Smile sounds boring. I'll probably watch it out of loyalty for Jun-sama but I foresee dropping the drama after a few episodes. I was actually relieved to hear Arashi won't be singing the theme song for the drama, and Shiina Ringo is awesome anyway. I think Arashi fans are starting to have entitlement issues (okay maybe we always have had entitlement issues lol). I don't want the general population to get too much of Arashi ya'know. That always, always lead to backlash. You can get sick of things you love.

The Quiz Show I think I can get behind. It doesn't sound like a ratings-puller but I love the premise. Lets hope Sho can pull this off. I've always been a little iffy on his acting and this lies more on the darker end of the drama spectrum and I really don't want him to botch this up. ho-crap I am such a nagative bummer when it comes to expectations. C'mon Sho! You can do this! This could actually be brilliant.

Warning: Rant ahead.

Everytime a new drama season rolls in there's the case of "What about Aiba-chan?". I dunno, maybe after a couple more butais or a legit acting coach who can be harsh on him? I know it's not that important to be super good at acting, especially in idol-infested jdrama business and his time may or may not come, but I don't want his lead drama adventure to totally crash and burn you know?

I have this hare-brained theory where people in show-biz/model-biz/kirakira-biz all lie between white canvas and muse and Aiba is somewhere close to the muse end of the spectrum. Let's talk acting here: Actors in the muse end of the spectrum when very talented will be awe-inspiring, or plain ol' inspiring; when mediocre will be typecasted (e.g Matsujun); when unproven/plain untalented will not be casted. Aiba-chan is somewhere there. Like every weird looking, weird sounding, weird kid will be. Aiba-chan is... flashes of brilliance (he makes for good preview/trailer clips, look at Believe pv preview), and totally inconsistent. A risk you're not sure you want to take as he's not as superstar powered as Matsujun or Sho.

yada yada yada disclaimer, i might just be talking out of my ass again. yada yada.

I'm not too overly concerned by it, as long as the guy himself is not too bothered by it, it's okay not to ever have a lead role in a drama. I suspect he'd be kinda bothered by it, sensitve soul and all but he also seems the pragmatic type to get over things quickly, I think. Arashi's too big now he'd practically not be offered secondary roles or their management would find it hard to approve of it.

Which brings me to a pet peeve of mine. Considering the overall quality of most jdramas, the acting especially, I'm a little pissed at how people will always look down at variety shows. Which is why I'd get :| everytime they'd list down the guys' projects and when it comes to Aiba everyone would feel I dunno, sorry? bad? for him. It's not a bad thing to put variety show as a priority, considering they are IDOLS dammit. And really, I'd give Aiba a LOT of credit for shaping Arashi's variety show style over the years. He was the one who came up with that stupid A no Arashi thing after which silliness increased in folds. He opened that up and Arashi embraced it and made it into more stupid shit we love to watch. He knows and acknowledge how important variety shows are to their careers as idols, he's not too proud to admit that and I respect that about him.

I other news, Zeni Geba is super frakilicous awesome. I dragged my feet after watching the first 2 episodes, but I'm glad I picked it up again after reading rave reviews. One of the best in recent years. I love how I don't care at all about the plot holes. It might be because the time and setting is so ambiguous. It's obviously sometime now but there are things like very old fashion cameras and the overall atmosphere that gives it an air of another world entirely, like certain things diverged from our timeline 30 years ago and created this world. And I love how it doesn't follow conventions at all and absolutely skew your expectations 3 different ways at any given time. It's over the top sometimes but it works in wonderful ways. Matsuyama Kenichi is a genius. I need to pick up Sexy voice and Robo again.

I don't see the appeal of Mizushima Hiro. Never had, never will. He's good looking I guess but I don't really see it. I think for the most parts, I really do pick my doramas and my shows by how much I like the females in it. I can stand badly charaterised males but if you botch the girls up, it's insta bye-bye. It's how I quit Hana Kimi, and dropped Goong and Coffee Prince after 14 and 11 episodes. It's probably why I couldn't get with the BOF program. I followed those as they came out weekly and I dropped it like a leaky bag of crap when the girl started to get weak and weepy and we're supposed to cry and be sad for her. It's okay to be flawed and weak and stupid because of some guy but don't put it in nice rosy tint. Which is why Mei-chan is okay. The whole thing so far is for her to suck it up and fight. Her weak moments actually lead to growth. Or something. Maybe I just like the crack.